“Find a way of eagerly anticipating future changes, while at the same time you are in love and satisfied with who, what, where and how you be.”
I don’t know about you, but it’s pretty rare that I don’t have some kind of music or noise playing in the background at all times. I think it’s a common habit, especially of single people. I usually turn the TV on the moment I walk into my apartment. I watch the Today Show while getting ready for work in the mornings. And I prefer to have music playing while I cook, clean or write. I’m grooving to Brand New Heavies, as we speak.
I think it makes me feel less alone. But I’m also aware of how it can sometimes keep me from being fully present in the moment.
That can be a good thing when you don’t really want to be aware – of another Saturday night home alone, another morning getting ready for a job you hate, or yet another (today is five) Valentine’s Day with no love in sight.
But the other afternoon I sat in unusual silence. I made a point to take in my surroundings, and how I felt about it.
There is so much “missing” right now from my life – a job, my own place, love and a family of my own. All important things I really hope to have soon. Very soon. But I am also very aware of what I do have: Time.
Time to find the right job, instead of jumping back onto that hamster wheel just for the biggest paycheck I can find. Time to do yoga and have lunch with my mom, instead of racing to and from a class alone to eat lunch at my desk. Time to spend an entire day writing at a coffee shop or wine bar when I feel like it.
I know that a year, or even a few months from now, I will look back fondly on this time in my life. No matter how anxious I am for it to pass.
If you can’t appreciate where you are, you’re less likely to attract more good stuff into your life. And I want lots of good stuff. Soon. In the meantime, I’m taking time everyday to appreciate the good stuff I already have.
You’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. Namaste.